So school.

School is going to start next week and I am really excited. A new major. Being surrounded by new people.

Last week I really realized that I have lost any perspective on the person I was and now I am trying to change that. I am going to stay the nice person I am but I am not going to let people walk all over me. I am not going to hide my anger with people.

Anyways, this Sunday I came back to Fullerton and well it was great. I went to Disneyland with NICOLE STRICKLAND and that was really fun (see pictures on facebook.com). I got to see NICOLE ROCA and COLLEEN WILSON who I missed very much.

Monday was good to because I took a dance class (and did not die) with Christa! It was great and I plan on taking it in the future. Later that day I got to fufill a dream and audition for A Chorus Line (albeit it was not the Broadway one but HEY ITS STILL ACL). A lot of people came to audition and I was so glad to see all these people but alas after four cuts Christa and I were the only ones left standing. (I really wished that they had kept some of the others... well most of the others all but ONE).

So the callbacks are tomorrow/today... and well I kind of am unexcited. I realized that this may conflict with the Dance Show. And I much rather be in the Dance show than this, and I know I am counting my eggs before they hatch but still. So if God were to grant me the greatest gift as to let me be in the Dance Show and A Chorus Line, there are two hours between rehearsals for ACL and when I finish with school with me allowing 20 minutes for commute... so I guess... MAYBE? It would be really cool to do both.

I am too tired to write anything else right now.

Tiger balm is my best friend

So, I cannot go to sleep ever. Literally ever. I have to wake up at 8 and it's akready 4:15... what' is the point?

Today was fun! I got to shop! and I got to hang out wiht a whole lot of people and do our secret santa... gift card to abercrombie means MORE shopping!

So yeah... the more and more I think of it... everything is going to be different. I just feel like my life can never be a unified whole. You know? Which I guess isn't that bad. Like, since I started college, there hasn't been a moment when I was completely happy. And it could be said that I am just that kind of person... the person who just cannot be happy completely, but I am trying... really. Like... if I start out a day well, it ends badly, but if I start it badly, it ends well... I never have a fully good day... EVEN AT DISNEYLAND!

And I feel like next semester I am going to be happy with school but unhappy socially because as much as people do not want to admit it, everyone is going grow apart a little... it'll be the people who made musical theatre, and the people who didn't and me, who chose to go and dance. And yeah, I will be super cyked to hang out with all the DM's but I don't not want to hang out with people.

I know I am a such a like fluttery person. I am sorry I go with path which is easiest... but I guess for some people I can maybe climb a few rocks.

By the way, I am revisiting Laguna Beach (the first season) and I am sooooooooo LO. It has been agreed upon by many. I am a lil bitchy, really ditzy but still smart, and yeah like... I dunno I just am.

I am way sore still.. I had to visit my friend, tiger balm... because I am hitting the gym tomorrow too. I am a little bit closer to a V torso... YEAh

2007! You are my biznatch!

So a new year has come. And I am one of those people who feel like a new year is an excellent way to have a new beginning! (as opposed to those think "A new year, same old shite"). And it really is a new year for me, I am going to the same school, I hopefully will have the same friends, I am living in the same place (and hopefully getting an apartment) but I have a new major, and seriously, I really am hoping that I can do well.

Anyways, I have already been really bad about my number one new year's resolution which is to work out... I am going tonight... and hopefully a lot this week... I am shooting for 4 times... I know I won't be going Saturday or Sunday.... DAMN CLOSING SHIFTS.

I miss everyone so much.